Black day today; I am far, far down the rabbit hole. I hate feeling like this. I want to pull the covers over my head, yell obscenities until my throat hurts. But there was still dinner to be made, a shower, so I forced myself to get up. It’s so hard.
My anxiety is full on right now, feel like I’m going to come out of my skin. I have tried all my coping mechanisms from Group, and still feel like the world is crashing down around me. I can’t shake the feeling that something horrible is going to happen. Eyes are swollen from a stolen cry in the bathroom.